The Uncertain Future

I kept wondering the same things over and over again lately. My mind always thought of the uncertain life that I am going to have in Malaysia soon. Why would it not stop thinking? I definitely know it would be different from the life that I had have in Glasgow where life is easier to go through. It must be much harder. But I kept thinking about it. When I think about frightening things that might happen in Malaysia, some happy pictures pop up in my mind. It cools me down again and stop thinking about things that are uncertain. The pictures of what I always imagined, my family in Malaysia would greet me with happy smile and glad that I am with them again always made me smiled again. I always wanted to go back to my home country and I believe that is the better place for all of my family. I wonder how many times that I have mentioned to my mum that I missed my grandparents, my cousins, my uncles and my aunties. Sometimes I also wonder, am I the only one that is missing them? Do they miss me? Most of the time I answer myself that they do miss me but the other thought is still curious. How do I know for certain? After all, nothing is certain.

When I packing the stuff at home, my mind is always thought about things. I tried to do my best when packing things because I always believe that they are worth a better place like our home in Malaysia. I imagined lots of things that involved every single things that I have packed. Where would I put this and that? Would I use it right away or not? When I imagined the lovely house that were waiting to be decorated in Malaysia, I would say you will be the most lovely house in the world because my family have worked very hard for you to be decorated. And one day, my family would seat together on the sofa corner in the living room, talking about how lovely you have become. We would laughed, smile and talked for hours without a single sad thought. Like we often did here where we would watched movie together while eating crisps. It felt much better than going to a cinema. I wonder if my dream would come true? The dream of being happy together as a family no matter where we are and whatever tests that we have to go through.

No one know how the future would turn out to be. It might turned to be as you expected or the other way round. You just do not know for certain.



The series of The Lord Of The Rings have been our favourite of all when we had a family time.