Mid-Year Exam

I really thought I screwed up in this mid-year exam,
I would not even get to the TOP 10,
I cried and regretted myself for not learning much harder than before,

When I thought that I did really badly;

I did not had the appetite to eat,

It was just sad and painful for me,

My heart shattered into pieces;

I was broken,

All those times;

I tried to put my worries at the back of my head and locked it,

But sometimes it sneaked out and I was dead worried once more.

That was what happened before,

I learnt my mistakes,

I admitted that I was foolish,

I prayed; I prayed,

I asked for His forgiveness,

I was very sorry,

I really hope that this exam’s results will not break my parents’ heart,

Their feelings are the most important to me,

I did not care whatever results I will get,

But I could never want to see the shame and sad faces from my family,

I just could not.

~Izzati~

Extract From Izzati's Diary June 2009